Dysthymia + Insomnia (Prod. Instinct)

… sick of this clown world… looking at me like I’m crazy… yeah… Maybe… but It kinda feels like it's the reason why I'm feeling so sick lately… get it? … I’m always in defence mode… Trying to not let it shape me, even though I Sometimes let her bait me… she picks me up and shakes me, on the daily, she Hates me, when I’m looking for safety, trying to break me… she gets furiously in- Juries with her punishment... Plainly touching my nucleus to change me… she maims me… got her eyes on me, feel like she put out a prize on me… In my Mind talking nonsense, gaslit... her comments replacing my conscience in panic, dra- matically traumatized… falling apart, damaged, broken, the whole package, Moping… Soaking in melancholia, my dystopia, can’t be opened, stop hoping God damn it… I’ve had it… few can understand it; my addiction to sadness… … they call It madness, revealing they’re average…too distant to this different planet, i’m granit… Hard body , baddest… Emotionally unavailable, ... anxious like; keep your paint off my canvas, fucking savage…psycho pathic… She planned it; the way she always intended to make me, now i … Don’t want to break free… always prepared for the places she takes me… [didn't know what to call this, but it felt real at the time] … so unrelatable… behaviour unexplainable, my talent’s unattainable, ge- netically crafted, axiomatic, baby blue blood, my bloodline’s all magic; stud, … lonely… thick walls, nine locks, keep out, no one knows me, or- Ganically enhanced defence system, aimed if you’re closely… move away… slowly, … No… hold me… and If i really care… I’ll chase you away… I’m Really scared that you’ll witness my chilling air and realize you’re in despair, and can’t breathe in here… My danger zone, want to remain unknown, My shadow’s a fortress where a mad king reigns alo ne, and I can’t reclaim the throne...